Its been said
That sounds very hard at first, but at the same time it is a great consolation, for the gap, as long as it remains unfilled, preserves the bond between us.
It is nonsense to say that God fills the gap, He does not fill it, but on the contrary, He keeps it empty and so helps us to keep alive our former communion with each other, even at the cost of pain."
Although my heart still breaks, it breaks silently, almost as if there is comfort in missing him. My tears aren't so bitter these days, as I know they are purely for me, not his restful soul. I just miss him so!